When you are bored...

...this is what happens. You start thinking of something, try a research and it goes on and on and you land up nowhere!

I was thinking of life and death. Why should people be born and then die. Cant they just not be born or not die? If science says, human beings came from monkeys, from where did monkeys come from? Who created animals? What made monkeys to stop upgrading themselves to humans now? Why arent there any more new species like birds upgrade to something weird? I dont know much about science, why people die, what happens after that etc

I do believe that there is one ruler/controller for the whole world. The bible says God created man and woman, Adam and Eve resp. and then to give them company created animals. Adam and Eve somehow found out how to mate and gave birth to Cain, Abel etc. Cain killed Abel. Now who will Cain marry? If Adam and Eve gave birth to 10 more kids, they will have to mate among themselves to produce some more people. When did people/what made them stop marrying their own sisters/brothers? In some countries, people dont marry cousins, some dont marry cousin sisters/brothers. When did people start fixing the age difference?
Human Beings to communicate used sign language, then drew the signs and then made alphabets, numbers, formed words. Who formed new words? Why did they stop making more new words?

Okay, now I just take for granted people are born, they live and now they die. When they are buried, the body decays, some cremate - so becomes ashes. Now does the life end there? Some believe, the soul goes to heaven/hell/purgatory based on their sins. Wont the heaven/hell/purgatory become over crowded because souls never stop coming. Some say people who die are reborn as something - human/animal. Is this recycling? So is it like at any time there are 100 human beings only, 90 are alive, 10 die and they are reborn?

Who decides who has to be born or to die? Who decides how a person should be born - male/female, normal, handicapped, to die immediately they were born? How a person should die? Which body part should stop working?

I guess, long long time ago, people died of even fever, cos they dint know, they should cover themselves, take rest, drink something warm etc. Later man learnt that trick, then he knew the trick of recovering from measles, then tumor, then heart ache etc etc. I'm sure very soon he will find the trick to recover from AIDS and all the other incurable diseases. Then what happens if a person is 80 yrs old, with all the organs in perfect condition -how long does he live? If this person dint meet with any accident or natural calamities etc, will he live forever? (I know, with existing violence very soon people wont even reach their 30's). If the world is completely in peace and people start living forever, then there wont be enough place!!

I can ask questions, make guesses but will never find any answer. If this life is what I have and even that I dont have any guarantee, anything will happen any second - shouldnt I live every second. I would want to be happy and not worry about anything. My life is important to me, the same is for others. Why can't I value every single life? Why do I want to kill them? Why can't I let people live their lives peacefully?

I know I need to wake up from dreaming. I will value every single life and will try my best to be good, caring, loving and helpful. I will try my best not to suck the happiness of others.