I'm not a die hard fan of MJ. But then my heart was heavy when I heard the news that he was no more. I used to like his 'Heal the world' song very much and only now trying to listen, see and appreciate his other albums. The way he moves, the way he sings - the high pitch and the twist and the whisper (dont know the exact word) - I'm a fan now.
With MJ's death there's so much happening - people are mourning, the bad is forgotten, media focussed on the sudden death, the doubt about his death, his children, his will, his debt etc etc etc. There are so many things to learn too.
Even though he was 'The King of Pop', he was never happy. He was abused verbally and physically at home and went on to perform on stage as if nothing happened. He always yearned for a normal childhood. His father treated him badly. Also heard MJ was self loathing, had poor self esteem, was insecure he had the skin disease and was ashamed of his body image. He was addicted to drugs. With the accusations and trials for child molestation he was torn and very upset. He was very sensitive.
He loved his kids and was protective of them. He didnt want people to call them 'wacko jacko's kids'. Now what will happen to the kids? People are fighting over them.
MJ's father Joe Jackson, attended the BET awards and it didnt look like he was mourning. He was promoting his production house at this time, when MJ's funeral still didnt take place yet.
The next fight is over his legacy and it goes on....
The person was popular, an idol, an icon for others but never lived peacefully and even after his death, media is all around him.
His last song, he wanted to give back to the environment - the earth was the body, with rivers as blood and air as oxygen. The earth is our outer body and we need to take care of it the same way we take care of ourselves.
I only hope it doesnt happen to any individual rich or poor, talented or not talented, black or white. MJ hope you are at peace atleast now. May you rest in peace. Amen
Monday, June 29, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Hope Year 2009
This year seems to be a year of HOPE!!!
Political Front:
US - I like Obama. This is the first time, I'm seeing the US Presidential inauguration, and this is the time when it makes sense to me. The crowd was amazing and it seems there was no commotion or an arrest. The new President made history. Whole world seemed to rejoice and everybody is waiting in hope to see him make changes. I do not expect anything from him, but I'm very much interested to see and know what change he is going to bring.
India - There is a lot of awareness and everyone wants a 'Obama' to be their next leader. They say they need a Obama and they bring forward people like 'Sanjay Dutt'. Will there be a new young, educated, patriotic leader who will be in his/her own class apart? Lets Hope for the best!
Work Front:
I'm working on some interesting projects. Hope I continue to have a job, go up the ladder, learn new things and always be patient and stress free.
Personal Front:
Last year really began very good, but ended up in a miserable way. I was heart broken, hurt, realised my mistakes when it was really too late. The new year started a bit rough but I'm hoping and believe this year will be a year of change. With past mistakes and lessons learnt I'm ready to face the new year.
I pray to God that I become strong, be an optimist and never lose hope and faith in him.
Political Front:
US - I like Obama. This is the first time, I'm seeing the US Presidential inauguration, and this is the time when it makes sense to me. The crowd was amazing and it seems there was no commotion or an arrest. The new President made history. Whole world seemed to rejoice and everybody is waiting in hope to see him make changes. I do not expect anything from him, but I'm very much interested to see and know what change he is going to bring.
India - There is a lot of awareness and everyone wants a 'Obama' to be their next leader. They say they need a Obama and they bring forward people like 'Sanjay Dutt'. Will there be a new young, educated, patriotic leader who will be in his/her own class apart? Lets Hope for the best!
Work Front:
I'm working on some interesting projects. Hope I continue to have a job, go up the ladder, learn new things and always be patient and stress free.
Personal Front:
Last year really began very good, but ended up in a miserable way. I was heart broken, hurt, realised my mistakes when it was really too late. The new year started a bit rough but I'm hoping and believe this year will be a year of change. With past mistakes and lessons learnt I'm ready to face the new year.
I pray to God that I become strong, be an optimist and never lose hope and faith in him.
Monday, December 15, 2008
Heart Ache
They liked each other and they still do. But then, they know it is not going to work out - the reason being parents will not accept and different religion. They don't have the heart to go against them. So they decide to give up, but still remain friends (I know what the ****?).
So the guy has asked his parents to see a bride. And he discusses all these details with this girl. She is updated with the girl seeing ceremony, shares the bride's pictures and asks her opinion. And he is kind of excited about the bride.
But the girl, is shattered. The girl shouldn't be undergoing this kind of torture.
So the guy has asked his parents to see a bride. And he discusses all these details with this girl. She is updated with the girl seeing ceremony, shares the bride's pictures and asks her opinion. And he is kind of excited about the bride.
But the girl, is shattered. The girl shouldn't be undergoing this kind of torture.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Terrorists attack in Mumbai
I'm not in Mumbai, I'm not in the same state or country. I dont have any relatives or friends but then reading the news and seeing the pictures, I shiver and tears fill my eyes.
Why do they do this? What do they want? Why should they be so arrogant and behave like an animal? Is one's life that cheap. Why cant they live and let live? What can they achieve by killing people? Even if there is some motive, they are ready to sacrifice their own life and whats the point? You fight for something and you are not going to see or experience the results.
Terrorism even for a valid cause is not good.
Dont behave like an animal. Dont take away your life, love your life first, live your life meaningfully. Only if you can love yourself, you can even tolerate another human being.
Is India becoming a terrorist country? This is what cnn says: "Terrorists take over Mumbai". Where is the world heading to?
Please God, stop them, change their minds.
Let there be peace.
Why do they do this? What do they want? Why should they be so arrogant and behave like an animal? Is one's life that cheap. Why cant they live and let live? What can they achieve by killing people? Even if there is some motive, they are ready to sacrifice their own life and whats the point? You fight for something and you are not going to see or experience the results.
Terrorism even for a valid cause is not good.
Dont behave like an animal. Dont take away your life, love your life first, live your life meaningfully. Only if you can love yourself, you can even tolerate another human being.
Is India becoming a terrorist country? This is what cnn says: "Terrorists take over Mumbai". Where is the world heading to?
Please God, stop them, change their minds.
Let there be peace.
Friday, March 28, 2008
Real Love
What is Real Love? Is there one?
I searched for it and I found some definitions, explanations and I've pasted snippets from here and there -
We all want to feel loved. We think about it, hope for it, fantasize about it, go to great lengths to achieve it, and feel that our lives are incomplete without it. The lack of unconditional love is the cause of most of our anger and confusion. It is no exaggeration to say that our emotional need for unconditional love is just as great as our physical need for air and food.
We can feel loved only when it is freely, unconditionally given to us. The instant we do anything at all to win the approval or respect of other people—with what we say, what we do, how we look—we are paying for the attention and affection we receive, and we can’t feel genuinely loved.
Unconditional love—true love—is so different from the kind of love most of us have known all our lives that it deserves both a name—Real Love—and definition of its own: Real Love is caring about the happiness of another person without any thought for what we might get for ourselves. It’s also Real Love when other people care about our happiness unconditionally. It is not Real Love when other people like us for doing what they want. Under those conditions we’re just paying for love again. We can be certain that we’re receiving Real Love only when we make foolish mistakes, when we fail to do what other people want, and even when we get in their way, but they don’t feel disappointed or irritated at us. That is Real Love (true unconditional love), and that love alone has the power to heal all wounds, bind people together, and create relationships quite beyond our present capacity to imagine.
If we don’t have enough Real Love in our lives, the resulting emptiness is unbearable. We then compulsively try to fill our emptiness with whatever feels good in the moment—money, anger, sex, alcohol, drugs, violence, power, and the conditional approval of others. Anything we use as a substitute for Real Love becomes a form of Imitation Love, and although Imitation Love feels good for a moment, it never lasts and never gives us the feeling of genuine happiness that Real Love provides.
You should be able to share your mistakes, flaws, and fears—they can finally see you as you really are. They can accept you and give you unconditional love, as indicated in this simple diagram:
Truth ->Seen-> Accepted-> Loved
How true it is in reality? Are there people who really have unconditional love? I don't know.
-I believe mother's love is unconditional and I have also heard of mothers who give their child for adoption, leave them in garbages.
-Men and women fall in love and they believe, its true love. These people have an unconditional love for their parents and for their mate(lover). When it comes to choosing one, the stronger love or the blind love wins. I have seen many young people leave parents who cared for 20 odd years and go with the person they knew for few days/months/years and there are few young people who feel they just cannot hurt their parents or leave them and so they sacrifice their lover. In some cases, there are people who fight for both and they win.
It all depends on us. Who do you want? Who do you really love? Without whom you cannot live...
I searched for it and I found some definitions, explanations and I've pasted snippets from here and there -
We all want to feel loved. We think about it, hope for it, fantasize about it, go to great lengths to achieve it, and feel that our lives are incomplete without it. The lack of unconditional love is the cause of most of our anger and confusion. It is no exaggeration to say that our emotional need for unconditional love is just as great as our physical need for air and food.
We can feel loved only when it is freely, unconditionally given to us. The instant we do anything at all to win the approval or respect of other people—with what we say, what we do, how we look—we are paying for the attention and affection we receive, and we can’t feel genuinely loved.
Unconditional love—true love—is so different from the kind of love most of us have known all our lives that it deserves both a name—Real Love—and definition of its own: Real Love is caring about the happiness of another person without any thought for what we might get for ourselves. It’s also Real Love when other people care about our happiness unconditionally. It is not Real Love when other people like us for doing what they want. Under those conditions we’re just paying for love again. We can be certain that we’re receiving Real Love only when we make foolish mistakes, when we fail to do what other people want, and even when we get in their way, but they don’t feel disappointed or irritated at us. That is Real Love (true unconditional love), and that love alone has the power to heal all wounds, bind people together, and create relationships quite beyond our present capacity to imagine.
If we don’t have enough Real Love in our lives, the resulting emptiness is unbearable. We then compulsively try to fill our emptiness with whatever feels good in the moment—money, anger, sex, alcohol, drugs, violence, power, and the conditional approval of others. Anything we use as a substitute for Real Love becomes a form of Imitation Love, and although Imitation Love feels good for a moment, it never lasts and never gives us the feeling of genuine happiness that Real Love provides.
You should be able to share your mistakes, flaws, and fears—they can finally see you as you really are. They can accept you and give you unconditional love, as indicated in this simple diagram:
Truth ->Seen-> Accepted-> Loved
How true it is in reality? Are there people who really have unconditional love? I don't know.
-I believe mother's love is unconditional and I have also heard of mothers who give their child for adoption, leave them in garbages.
-Men and women fall in love and they believe, its true love. These people have an unconditional love for their parents and for their mate(lover). When it comes to choosing one, the stronger love or the blind love wins. I have seen many young people leave parents who cared for 20 odd years and go with the person they knew for few days/months/years and there are few young people who feel they just cannot hurt their parents or leave them and so they sacrifice their lover. In some cases, there are people who fight for both and they win.
It all depends on us. Who do you want? Who do you really love? Without whom you cannot live...
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Filmi Style
At the end of my last year in college, me and my friend were attending some HR program in Nungambakkam. End of the day we had taken a bus to Adyar, us sitting in the last seat of the bus and I had the window seat. There was this young guy, standing near the footboard and looking at me. I kept looking here and there and I felt his eyes on me. I slowly told my friend and she was watching him and adviced me to look at him too. And so this guy smiles every time our eyes met and I try avoiding his eyes. Finally at Teynampet, he got down but after getting down, he turned, caught me looking at him (like the movie RUN) and he smiled and I smiled. I was a bit scared, if he would get into the bus again....
The next day on a bus from Nungambakkam to Mylapore. In a window seat, in the middle of the bus. Another good looking guy, he wore a white shirt, standing near the front footboard, was looking at me. Again I avoid meeting his eyes and tell my friend and she was excited because he looked good and asked me to look at him too(sight adichify). I look here and there and look at him, he smiles. This happened for some time and he had to get down. He gets down, looks at me and smiles and I smile and the bus takes off...
If only it was a film, the girl and guy would have met again in the same bus, in the same route, at the same time for the following days or they would have met in some other place and eventually fallen in love...
Fortunately or not it wasn't a film, here I am after 5 years and I remember those incidents and wonder why I smiled at them - complete strangers who were "sight" seeing... I wonder if those guys came the next day, at the same time, caught the same bus and expected me to be there!!! I know,I should stop watching a lot of movies... :)
The next day on a bus from Nungambakkam to Mylapore. In a window seat, in the middle of the bus. Another good looking guy, he wore a white shirt, standing near the front footboard, was looking at me. Again I avoid meeting his eyes and tell my friend and she was excited because he looked good and asked me to look at him too(sight adichify). I look here and there and look at him, he smiles. This happened for some time and he had to get down. He gets down, looks at me and smiles and I smile and the bus takes off...
If only it was a film, the girl and guy would have met again in the same bus, in the same route, at the same time for the following days or they would have met in some other place and eventually fallen in love...
Fortunately or not it wasn't a film, here I am after 5 years and I remember those incidents and wonder why I smiled at them - complete strangers who were "sight" seeing... I wonder if those guys came the next day, at the same time, caught the same bus and expected me to be there!!! I know,I should stop watching a lot of movies... :)
Monday, March 24, 2008
Abuse...
The child is a helpless victim. They wont even know what is happening to them, and it is even more horrible if their own loved ones abuse them.
I have read about this issue in so many places, and people say it happens everywhere - So? Should I just be happy that every other child goes through this? When will people learn? When will they learn to control the animal emotions and urges in them?? There are people who just dont stop doing this until they go to the grave.
I have a friend, who was asked by her own father? WTF? I also know someone who was abused by her immediate uncles. Poor parents had left the children, thinking the uncle will take care, but never knew how he would take care..
There was a girl who was raped by her own brother. Can't these people see their sisters, daughters, cousins are like their mother and give respect? Will they behave the same way with their mother?? (I'm even ashamed to ask such a question but cant help it)
I have read articles, where mother likes the son in law, man likes his sister in law and I have even read about man having sex with a hen! I feel like gagging even now... Is this what they say "the animal in a man"?
I had undergone abusal and have never known what it was till I reached a age when I understood what is sex, what is sexual abuse etc. We always had men working in our house. I should have been 3 yrs old, but even now I remember the incidents, the places where this guy who was taking care of me took and did what he had to do. There was another guy, who would touch my private parts and I always kept escaping from him.
I dont know about US, but in India, some men are horrible. A girl cannot travel in public transports. My friend got her private parts pinched while she was getting out of a bus. Crowded bus, is congested for some, but heaven for others. The way the men press against the female, you feel like slapping them. Once when I was travelling in a crowded bus (didnt have a choice after waiting for 1hr for bus), there were 2 men pressing there hardened body parts against my back and my side. I moved and moved and there was another guy who took his turn. I moved to the foot board and they will not leave me alone even there and finally got down from that damn bus. Once I stamped a guy hard when he was trying to become inseparable behind me in a public bus.
Mumbai local trains are even more horrible. When you come out of the train, you even doubt if you were just raped by many. There will be so many hands on you, so many eyes ... You might want to wear a body gear made of metal, which doesnt curve anywhere, but just a box from top to bottom.
Even in US I have read about small girls, being raped, killed and left in sewages, garbages etc. A teacher molesting the kid etc It just happens everywhere. I dont know when this will stop....
I have read about this issue in so many places, and people say it happens everywhere - So? Should I just be happy that every other child goes through this? When will people learn? When will they learn to control the animal emotions and urges in them?? There are people who just dont stop doing this until they go to the grave.
I have a friend, who was asked by her own father? WTF? I also know someone who was abused by her immediate uncles. Poor parents had left the children, thinking the uncle will take care, but never knew how he would take care..
There was a girl who was raped by her own brother. Can't these people see their sisters, daughters, cousins are like their mother and give respect? Will they behave the same way with their mother?? (I'm even ashamed to ask such a question but cant help it)
I have read articles, where mother likes the son in law, man likes his sister in law and I have even read about man having sex with a hen! I feel like gagging even now... Is this what they say "the animal in a man"?
I had undergone abusal and have never known what it was till I reached a age when I understood what is sex, what is sexual abuse etc. We always had men working in our house. I should have been 3 yrs old, but even now I remember the incidents, the places where this guy who was taking care of me took and did what he had to do. There was another guy, who would touch my private parts and I always kept escaping from him.
I dont know about US, but in India, some men are horrible. A girl cannot travel in public transports. My friend got her private parts pinched while she was getting out of a bus. Crowded bus, is congested for some, but heaven for others. The way the men press against the female, you feel like slapping them. Once when I was travelling in a crowded bus (didnt have a choice after waiting for 1hr for bus), there were 2 men pressing there hardened body parts against my back and my side. I moved and moved and there was another guy who took his turn. I moved to the foot board and they will not leave me alone even there and finally got down from that damn bus. Once I stamped a guy hard when he was trying to become inseparable behind me in a public bus.
Mumbai local trains are even more horrible. When you come out of the train, you even doubt if you were just raped by many. There will be so many hands on you, so many eyes ... You might want to wear a body gear made of metal, which doesnt curve anywhere, but just a box from top to bottom.
Even in US I have read about small girls, being raped, killed and left in sewages, garbages etc. A teacher molesting the kid etc It just happens everywhere. I dont know when this will stop....
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